the distance

today im gonna talk about distance, to be more precise, its long distance relationship. recently, i got comments like this, "i really admire you for your perseverance. how do you cope with the long distance when he's not there for you all the time? what happens when you need him cand he's not around?"

in case if you're still unaware of my relationship status, im attached with a boyfriend who's currently pursuing his studies in america. well, i got to know him when he's already there and it just so happened that he's back for his vacation and you know, we met and things happened. LOL. why did i even agree to start this long distance relationship when i already obviously know the consequences? well, i cant really answer that i guess. its all about the feelings and probably the time was right back then?

the purpose of writing this is to share my journey of love for 2 years, coming to 2 and a half years this coming june. it just suddenly daunt on me that i guess im still quite independent to a certain level, no? HAHA. well, put all those "i cant-shop-and-eat-alone-stuffs" aside, i guess im still surviving pretty well without my boyfriend by my side? here are the reasons:

1. occupied with work and studies
im pretty much a workaholic and always that responsible and worried about my work and im the sort who needs to do my own stuffs on my own and cant stand having anybody else touching my stuffs and doing them for me. so, im occupied almost 24/7 of my time just on work and studies alone.

2. fatiqueness
by the time i reach home from late night classes, i'll be so dead tired that i dont have much energy left to think about excess matters and the only thing that comes to my mind would be sleeping and waking up to a whole new day of work the next morning. so? where's the time to worry and think?

3. family and friends/in-laws bonding
im not the kind of party girl who goes drinking and clubbing every other weekends, so my usual hangout routine with my friends would be shopping and dinner dates. the occasional family gatherings make me happy too. these people are enough to keep my weekends happy. come to think of it, i've only saturdays to spare in a week of 7 days. so, i dont really have free time as well. another point to add on would be the occasional meetups with his family. okay, maybe this could be a lil tough for some people cus not everyone could really click well with boyfriend's family or whatsoever so i think im considered quite fortunate that im on relatively good terms with his family members. his mom and brother would call me out for dinner dates occasionally when they're free for some bonding. LOL.

4. when the love is strong
its always the hardest not during the first few months but i would say probably somewhere in the middle if you're still in the relationship for more than a year. this is usually the period of time when the honeymoon period is over, when both parties start going back into reality and get busy with their own stuffs without as much communication as before. danger period i would say cus there would be more bickerings and such but if the love is strong enough, both would be able to get through tough times together.

5. communication
needless to say, communication is one of the more important points out of all. no matter how busy we are, how little time we have for each other, we would still leave messages for each other or try to talk to each other daily through MSN so that we have updates on each other's lives.

every long distance relationship differs and i cant say that mine is the same as all the others out there but i survived, somehow. theres no doubt that i did waver my thoughts and wanted to give up halfway but each time this happened, we managed to get things right and got through the tough times together. yes, he might not be physically here for me and i dont deny that there were times when i wished that he's here and yada yada, but its all about the determination and the trust i have in him. its kinda difficult for me to say the word trust cus im very afraid of getting hurt especially after my horrible first love, thus i find it extremely difficult to trust in a complete stranger who's entering into my life again and getting a part of everything i do. as time goes by, i guess he proved with his actions that i could place that teeny weeny bit of trust in him. its very important for a man to honour his words and prove with his actions, EXTREMELY IMPORTANT.

the last point is to always remember to keep your relationship fun and easy-going. this applies to all relationships, not specifically for long distance ones. by fun and easy-going, i mean keep things light-hearted, joke around a lot, do lots of stupid things together, talk to each other about everything under the sun and enjoy going anywhere and everywhere together. the trick is to really behave like best friends and yet at the same time, dependable during the rough periods. the rule of the thumb is to always be there for each other, never keep your arguments for more than one day and show love often by saying "i love you" many times and mean it, surprises and lil treats to brighten up each other's days! :)

here's a picture of us, in our current 28th month together!

:D

씨엔블루 아직 사랑한다

one of my favourite songs on repeat these days! ♥
its actually a really sad song if you read through the lyrics.
minhyuk looks really cute in here! kinda love boys with cute single eyelids these days. so attractive! hehe! (:
last but not least, totally mesmerised with yonghwa's voice and his cute single eyelids too! :D

24th birthday

thank you everyone for all the well wishes! :)

its really scary how fast time flies by every year with all of us getting older each year. i used to wanna grow up as fast as i could when i was young and now that im 24, i wish i could still go back to the days when i was still a child. 6 more years before im 30. zomg.

anyway, i just received choding's birthday present from USA! its the third birthday parcel he sent me since 2010. come to think of it, we've already spent 3 birthdays (thou i've yet to celebrate his birthday this year cus its in may) with each other since we got together. :)

i love opening parcels! :D

this is my birthday present, sony camera. gonna use it for our korea trip! :D

handwritten letter plus a hidden video message for me in the camera! :D seriously, i dont understand why he calls me 'master wu gui' nowadays, my new nickname apparently. -.-

belated anniversary gift, YSL wallet.

the best part that i like about the presents is the video. it was seriously so epic funny and i cant control my laughter throughout the whole video. LOL. i wish i could post it up and share but... i cant. he's too vulgar in the video, with all the profanities here and there and he looked really awkward and retarded talking to himself (which was supposedly me) into the mirror. HAHAHA! :P OH, he tried to sing me a birthday song but its a major fail cus he stopped without even finishing the first line before telling me its too weird to sing it in front of a mirror. HAHAHA! :P

i was telling him about how nobody believes me when i said he actually takes care of me pretty well cus everyone thought that im too matured for him and how he is still a lil boy who cant do anything at all. LOL. the fact is he is the one taking care of me most of the time and he does his job well. he can be quite a sweetie pie SOMETIMES. i said 'sometimes' so as to not let him get all arrogant and proud of himself. LOL.

lastly, its the same old thing that i always say, i feel blessed to have him with me. thank you for everything, my big baby boy. i know you love me the most! <3

children with special needs

the other day while i was in class, my lecturer showed us a video about how this down syndrome child lived through his schooling years all the way to high school and how his life was after he graduated from school. the video showed how the boy struggled in mainstream schools and how he was being ostracised by other children and how he couldnt really learn anything much throughout his schooling years. there's also interviews conducted with his mom and she was in denial cus she believed that her child should go to normal schools just like other children so that he could learn to blend in and survive in this society.

after watching the video, i had a lot of thoughts running through my mind. the reason why im so overwhelmed with thoughts and emotions was cus there's this kid with behavioural problems in my class this year. i dont deny that he was really problematic, giving me a hard time every morning but at the same time, i couldnt blame him for being 'naughty' cus he's having some disabilities unlike normal children. he had really short attention span, couldnt sit still for more than 10 minutes, disturbed and hurt other children whenever he had the chance to do so, couldnt read and write at all, couldnt even recognise any alphabets or numbers.

because of his behavioural issues, i had to be very harsh and firm with this boy cus im left with no choice. i had to do this so as to keep the other normal children in my class 'sane'. however, whenever i had to be harsh on him, i kinda pitied him at the same time cus i know he just cant control himself, not that he really wanted to hurt others. teachers like us, who are not trained in special needs would never be able to teach and give those children any proper guidance. sad, isnt it? but really, there's nothing much that i could do even thou i really pity him. he can be really cute sometimes and i dont really mind having him with me till end of the year but i really wanna help him to get proper treatment.

i dont know if his parents are in denial of his condition but i really think that he should be enrolled into a special needs school where he could be given proper guidance and learn things that he was supposed to learn instead of wasting time in mainstream schools in which we cant do anything to help him at all. at the end of the day, the child is gonna suffer in the long run.

sometimes, i dont understand why parents are ALWAYS in denial of their children's condition whenever outsiders tell them that their children are perhaps having some disabilities. i mean, PLEASE for goodness sake, get them a doctor and do early intervention. by putting them and forcing them into mainstream schools really dont do them any good. it will just backfire and make things worse for them. it can be really devastating to know that your child is abnormal but if its meant to be like this, accept the reality and do something to help them.

well, its easier said than done. i keep asking myself this question, 'what if i have a special needs child? what am i gonna do?' i cant really answer that cus it doesnt only requires temporary attention but permanent attention for life. i've to take care of this child for my whole entire life and i've to even worry about him/her after i die. i cant imagine how traumatising that can be for me yet i cant just leave the child alone and abandon him/her.

just something for everyone to think about.

CNY 2012

happy dragon new year everybody!
its finally the DRAGON year. i was 12 the last time when it was the dragon year and im gonna be you know... double that age this year, in exactly ONE MONTH'S TIME. damn old. :(
when i was young, i told myself that im gonna have a dragon baby next time but guess what? im still not married now, HOW TO HAVE DRAGON BABY? LOL. i really love dragon cus im a 小龙女 myself! :) so people, 生多多 this year cus its finally the long awaited dragon year!

anyway, cny is always my favourite festive season since young, tons of family fun and good food to eat! :D

in my modern cheongsam dress for day 1. i looked really tall here, perhaps 180cm? HAHA. no lar, perhaps only 170cm? :P

favourite picture! btw, a few friends and colleagues had been asking me where to get my pair of heels. well, you definitely cant find it in singapore cus i bought them in hongkong! :D


my outfit is green like the plant, no?
brother and i!
vivi and i in our modern cheongsam dress!
cousins love!
val and i!
cousins love!




only picture for day two, at my 5th aunt's place.

played dai dee with my cousins and i lose in every freaking round! tsk tsk, its true. dragons better dont gamble this year. the two goats (bro and val) kept taking turns to win!

well, that very much sums up my cny for year 2012. its back to reality now, assignments and work! why so fast! :(

♥♥

happy 2012! :D

im so happy that the disastrous 2011 was finally over! 2011 was totally crap for me and i really cant wait for 2012 to arrive! so, i realised i didnt blog for ages! too busy to sit down and blog when choding(new nickname for baby baby) came back in december. anyways, we spent a really great time together for the three weeks despite not having any fanciful programmes during christmas and NYE.

anyway, we are two years old! :D it still felt like yesterday when i just met him at coffee bean. LOL. we went to studio m for a 3D2N staycation to celebrate our 2 years anniversary.

loewe perfume for him. he said, "perfume is an insincere gift." & i replied, "you've bought me 3 perfumes!" -.-

he bought me a YSL wallet in white and its in america. well, for some reasons, he couldnt bring it back in time so he gotta send it back to me as a belated anniversary cum christmas gift. :(

studio m.
apparently, playing game is his priority.
first night.

love my choding! ♥
dinner at his favourite sushi tei.
second night.


choding loves disturbing me!
dinner at imperial treasure.
eating my favourite gustimo icecream and he's fascinated with big fishes.
after dinner, he brought me to marina barrage after bugging him for a kite flying session for the longest time ever. LOL. he finally relented to my request and said, "hannah hannah, bring you there to fly kite lah, but dont blame me if they dont sell kites anymore." obviously they dont sell kites anymore at 1030pm. -.-


so, we reached and im so fascinated with the laser lights from marina bay sands! chio ttm! :D anyway, we took a walk up to the big field on top and its so windy that night! we saw lots of kites flying in the air and i said, "im gonna go over to one of the groups and join them for kite flying!" he looked at me with a crazy smile and replied, "you know what im gonna do? i will just go over to them and say, im so sorry my sister is retarded and drag you back." WTF? LOL.

after fooling around for awhile, we decided to go downstairs to play with the water.


i like to be piggybacked! :)

we went back to the hotel and spent our last night there together. he piggybacked me up the stairs to the bed when im so afraid that we'll both roll down the stairs and break our bones or something! LOL. fortunately, we didnt and i asked him, "am i very heavy?" he replied, "no." HENG AH! if not, im gonna start on my dieting plans again. LOL. i tried piggybacking him as well and he's so heavy! it felt like he's gonna crush me to death. HAHAHA. :P

its two years now and im thankful for having him by my side even thou he has some really bad flaws but nobody is perfect and i chose to look beyond his imperfections and love him for being my sweetest boy throughout the years. i still hate him thou, for not bringing me to eat samgyupsal this time round cus he developed a cough and flu after being back for a week. :(


i finally attended my first korean lesson today! my teacher was really good and i totally enjoyed the 2 hours in class! im already looking forward to next saturday's class! :)

yay! cny is round the corner! i miss those family gatherings, pineapple tarts, heh bi hiams and bak kwas!! :DD

Troublesome and salty!

i found these two videos in my video folder and i LOL-ed really hard while watching them! ENJOY! (:



my baby baby was so hilarious and adorable right? LOL! he was so nice to scoop soup for me (love him x1000000) thou he was complaining all the while! come on baby, i know you love me and takes care of me really well like always! :D and oh, im the one who made him love macarons! HAHA! i gotta admit, the "i want take picture" comment was really random. LOL!



this was not as hilarious as the above video or so i thought. unless you enjoy watching me eat. haha! for some reason, the ramen was really salty! i disliked it! the "show us your signature very small biting" was really lame lah! HAHAHA! he just has to criticise my slow eating habit all the time! girls what! :(

the way we love each other is by teasing, criticising, making fun of each other and bickering with each other all the time! thats how we show our love. hehe! :D but of course, we do show our affection by being really sweet to each other as well! a combination of all even thou we are bickering most of the time. HAHA!

we can do the stupidest thing ever like singing "with you" randomly before we sleep, sharing the lamest jokes (some are jokes that we self-created LOL) with each other, giving each other tons of nicknames like fatty, fat shit, umbrella, hamtaro, etc, we can even play catching with each other SOMETIMES! hahaha! i can share almost anything under the sun with him and i just love talking to him even thou he always complains about my super high-pitched voice and being too talkative most of the time. LOL! I DONT CARE. i know he enjoys having conversations with me. without me, his life wouldnt be this colourful, right baby baby? :P

i love my korean superstar boyfriend! (thats the nickname he gave himself! LOL) :D

picnic with cousins!

its been really long since the four of us went out together, so the other day, the weekend before mid autumn festival, we planned for a picnic at marina barrage! :D




the food we brought! did you see the mooncake from val, hiding behind the fishballs? :D
let's eat!
the only guy with the girls! :D




the weather was not very good on that day, we've to constantly worry about the dark clouds hovering over our heads and covering our food when we felt raindrops on us. LOL! so, we moved downstairs instead and started playing the games we brought!
playing monopoly deal that i borrowed from cousin jevons!
after monopoly deal, they relived my memory of playing bluff. we had so much fun trying to catch each other! LOL! then we started eating the mooncake before ending our picnic.
the three of us ♥♥♥




we were really close since young and im so glad that we are still as close now! val, vivi and i can really talk about anything and everything under the sun. we've shared so much secrets, laughter and tears with each other throughout our growing years. i really love my family! :D