yes, i bid farewell to my first job that i've worked for five years. i've pondered over the option of leaving for quite sometime before i really came to a decision. i got promoted at the start of this year but somehow, i still chose to leave cus a better opportunity came along. after much consideration, putting the feelings aside, its only logical that i resign and move on. the new company offered me everything that i requested for and on top of that, the boss is a really nice lady who appreciates working with young people. she's willing to give me the chance to prove myself despite the fact that i only have five years of experience in the field. she told me, "over here at our side, we value people who's capable. it doesnt matter if you've only worked for a year or ten years. as long as you can show results, you will be duly rewarded. that is why we dont practice long service awards over here. we dont believe in that."
thats it. the moment i heard that, i told myself, "jo, this is the place for you." i dont believe in long service awards either. i mean, so what if you've worked in a company for ten years? does it really mean that you're so experienced and so much more capable than anybody else? what a load of bullcrap. trust me. the society these days doesnt work this way. you want a promotion or a pay rise? show your capabilties and work smart for it. if a company doesnt reward you for what you've worked hard for, leave the place. it only means that that's not the place for you to shine.
"she's been here for ten years, if anybody should be the one, it should be her. if joanne got the position instead, it just shows that the management sees the skin colour." what kinda racist comment is this? i was shocked beyond words upon hearing that remark. i was boiling inside of me, but i masked my emotions well. i kept quiet, smiled and nodded my head. but in actual fact, i wanted to scold that piece of shit a big F YOU. how smart of you to say that to me on my last day there cus you know that im leaving and you dont have to care about respecting me anymore. and of course, supporting your own fellow "same skin colour" colleague was the most sensible thing to do right?
im telling everyone now that i look down on them, very much. skin colour? ten years? what a joke. the truth is this is a very competitive world. if you're not capable enough, you f off. thats the reality. do you honestly think that your fellow "same skin colour" colleague can get the position if i didnt resign? think about it. she's the one who felt that im her threat all along when i dont even regard her as my threat, not a single bit at all cus i know that im more capable than her. i dont have to fight for that position with her. thats so low class. i dont have to stoop that low to get that position when i believe i can easily get it outside of this company that you've worked for ten years.
complacency is the word. just cus you're the senior there, you think that you're the best? this must be the biggest joke of the day. unfortunately, wake up your bloody idea and look around you. oh yes, i almost forgot. you've worked there for ten years and have never seen the outside world before so i should understand how outdated you are. bear this in mind: i resigned not cus im afraid of you two but rather, i decided to stop playing racist mind games with all you "same skin colour" fellow colleagues. continue living in your own little world. fancy you praying for so many times a day and yet you cant even understand the simple meaning of showing respect. and hey, we are living in singapore, a multiracial country where we celebrate racial harmony day every year. dont you remember?
i cannot fathom why this place is full of racial issues. it just makes no sense to me. this is obviously not the place for me. five years is enough. honestly speaking, if not for my boss, i wouldnt even stay for five years. she's like my mentor and my friend. i cannot express my gratitude enough for the help she had given me and the support and guidance she had provided me with throughout my days there. whatever she had taught me will follow me through my career path ahead of me. i sincerely hope for the best for her. and of course, not forgetting those who loved me as well. they know who they are. (:
and for now, im rather excited about my new job. huge challenges ahead but i promise myself that i will work hard. :)
