its been too long since i really posted something other than songs and lyrics and whatnot. been really busy as usual and i've finally graduated from my two years of leadership course! yayy! *pops champagne* my next step would be pursuing of my degree. i kinda have some regrets not continuing my studies straight after i got hold of my diploma years back cus now i gotta go through part time studies with work which can be quite burdensome at times but i guess i can cope well with things cus i work well under pressure. i must say i achieved rather good results with at least a 3.5 GPA score! for this, im really proud of myself! :D sometimes, it can be a bonus when you work and study at the same time cus you experience things on the ground level and you can actually apply your knowledge and skills better when you study at the same time. well, there's always pros and cons to everything.
coming back to the degree, i havent come to the best decision about the school yet cus duration and credibility play some really crucial part here. honestly, i really wanna set up my own school or even run a school on my own with my ideas and my philosophies one day. i've been dreaming about it lately and asking myself questions like, 'when is it gonna happen?' 'will it even come true?' etc. i know running a school isnt easy and the thought of it really scares me off sometimes cus i dont have much confidence in running a business on my own. i have a lot of ideas thou but the setting up and the whatsoever turns me off. im like, 'wtf. there's so many things to do before your school is ready for business. can i not do all those miscellanous stuffs?' i shall be patient and preserve my ideas and thoughts for now until i get the chance to really start my own school.
there's this opportunity for me to work overseas for a minumum of two years. it sounds really appealing to me and most importantly, its the experience of working and living in a foreign country that really tempted me to go for it! the place might not be as clean and as developed as singapore but i believe the people there are much warmer and much friendlier as compared to singaporeans. i think it would be an eyeopener for me if i really go but i rejected cus my priority now is to get hold of a degree. opportunities dont come knocking twice on your door but i guess i need to know whats my priority and whats the most important thing to me right now. no doubt, the learning experience could be really rich and could even make me a better person but, oh well.
anyway, its december! time really flies. im gonna be 25 in two months time. T.T its really at this point that i very much wish for time to slow down so that i can enjoy my life and enjoy my youth as much as i can. but just as i want time to slow down, everyone else is rushing to build up their career, to earn as much as they could so as to earn even more in the years ahead of them. so, if i were to stop now, my dream of opening my own school and whatever will stop as well and then i would be the one lagging behind everyone else. thus, how can i stop? T.T sad to say, singapore is a very realistic country. eveything is about lust and greed. cant we all be happy kids? :( yeah yeah, i know.. 25 is not a kid anymore. :(
ok im actually here to say that im thankful for all that i have experienced in 2012, be it the happy or unhappy moments, i love them all cus they are experiences which made me learned and become a better person. in fact, im more grateful for the unhappy moments that happened cus without all these, i wont grow and i wont be living a much better life now. for those people who let me down or did me wrong, i'd still treat you with kindness and reciprocate your bad deeds with kindness. being kind is something which i strongly believe in and i never wanna lose this value in me. it doesnt matter if i will always be taken advantage of cus as long as my conscience is clear, im happy.
if theres something for me to learn and become better in 2013, it would be to become more selfless and let go of being too selfish. im too spoilt for my own good sometimes and i find it really difficult not to be selfish especially to people who arent close to me. i need to be better and i will be.
happy december everyone!
