watching this video totally reminds me of baby baby, those days when he took care of me when he's here with me.
the times when i felt down at work and whined to him about the bad days and he'd always reply me with "dont worry baby, in 6hours' time, you'd probably forget everything when i see you tonight again." miraculously, true enough, i'd always feel happier when i see him again. and not to forget how he took care of me when i stayed over at his place; how he rubbed medicated oil on my tummy for me when i complained that my tummy hurts and how he took care of me and put me to sleep when i was drunk. those days were pure bliss. ♥
come to think of it, he was always there for me for the 3months plus when he was here with me. we were always there for each other, be it during the ups or downs. this is what i adore, never leaving each other alone no matter what. :) even at times like now when we're apart, we'd still make an effort to listen to each other's worries and woes. i know he likes to care for me and i love to care for him too. we're gonna overcome the long distance okay baby baby? i have absolute faith in us cus i know im a good girlfriend and my baby baby loves me the most. ♥
love aside...
sometimes even i cant believe i have such accurate sixth sense. maybe some of you might think its bullshit or coincidences or whatever, but i really do have this kinda scary intuition thingy that allows me to somehow sense signs and omens of bad things happening to my family or anything related to me. weird enough, no, i cant sense anything bad happening to my friends.
it was yesterday when i suddenly had this weird intuition that something bad is gonna happen to me. i wasn't feeling good till i went to sleep cus i decided to brush the bad feeling aside thinking that... im gonna quarrel with baby again. LOL. cus for the past 3weeks, whenever i quarrelled with him, this bad intuition will come to me. however, when i went to work this morning, i kept thinking about it. its impossible that the intuition is trying to tell me about baby cus we had been really good and fine.
and guess what?
i received a bad news this afternoon. grandma was admitted to the hospital cus she had another fall again. i just asked my mom and heard from her that her bone was fractured and need an operation. however, due to other complications, she might not be able to have the operation and if she cant go for the operation, she might need to be hospitalised for 3 to 4 months! :( mom said grandpa suffered from the same problem before he passed away. you know.. fell down, bone fractured, gotta stay in the hospital for a long time but before he can even survive that long, he was gone in just 2 weeks' of hospitalisation. :(
not that im trying to sound negative, but my sixth sense is telling me that something bad is gonna happen again. yes its scary i know.. sometimes i hope my sixth sense wont be that accurate but time and again, they always come true! :(
i love my grandma a hell lot cus she really dotes on me a lot. i will never forget the days when she would always come early in the morning and fetched me over to her place when my parents went to work, the times when she told me about the world war II stories she went through, the times when she told me about how she met my grandpa, how fierce grandpa was, the times when she told me about her younger days, how she took care of her parents and her younger siblings, the times she shared many of her life experiences with me. i'll never forget the days when grandpa fetched me home from kindergarten everyday, taught me to do my homework, brought me to the playground everyday, buy tidbits for me everyday, walked me to school everyday when i was big enough to go to primary one. grandpa gradually became old and third aunt was the one walking me to school everyday when i was in primary three.
my grandparents and my third aunt were the ones taking care of me and looking after me when i was young. when grandpa passed away, i was only 11. even thou i had so much gratitude towards him, i cant express them out at all. i just felt really sad when he's gone, when nobody is gonna buy me tidbits, teach me homework or bring me to the playground anymore. so, im really thankful i still have my grandma with me. she taught me a lot of things, all the valuable life lessons and without her, i probably wouldnt be what i am today.
so god, buddha, or whatever deities above, please let her be alright. mom said she didnt eat anything at all the whole day today since she was admitted. please grant her strength and let her be strong enough to go through this ordeal just like the last time.
