yes thats right. im officially 25 and i honestly think i still behave like a little girl. oh well, im young at heart and im forever young! i suddenly had a lot of thoughts about birthdays. its an occassion when you finally realised who are the ones who care for you and are always there throughout the years. its really amazing to see people come and go in your life. soon, you'll realise the ones who really love you will always remember to wish you no matter where they are. i felt really touched to receive the same greetings from the same people all these years. my family, my close friends and somehow... you. its the 4th year since 2010. thinking back, i was only 21 when i first know you and before i know it, im already 25.
bought myself a gift to pamper myself on my birthday for the first time in my life. i've always been receiving gifts from others but never from myself.
what an expensive taste i know. LOL. i really wanted to own a pandora bracelet since forever. i chose the charms for myself and they each have a meaning behind them and when i put them together, i know thats me. thats something that speaks about me. the diamond heart represents how much i love love and how much i crave for a eternal and undying love, the blue murano speaks about how much i adore blue and finally, the crown represents how i want to be treated; like a queen. the bracelet is only a quarter filled with my desires and thoughts now but i will turn it into a full bracelet about my life and something unique that belongs to me.
its only february and a lot of things are already happening in 2013. my job is in a mess, my family is facing some stress and my love life hasnt been going on smoothly like how i thought it should be. the only thing that didnt change are my friends. they are still there for me since forever. i never used to appreciate anything more than just saying a couple of 'thank yous' here and there but this birthday made me really appreciate every of their wishes from the bottom of my heart. meng fai was my secondary school mate and he honestly never fails to wish me on my birthday every single year. even thou he can go MIA for the whole year but he would always appear on my birthday to send me a birthday greeting without fail. sometimes receiving messages like this makes me feel loved by everyone else.
life is so unpredictable. i really cant fathom whats in for the future and my mom has been telling me since young that fortune telling is a bad thing to do and we should never know whats going to happen ahead of us when the time is not right yet. i believed so and never will go for fortune telling ever in my life and so, i will just take things as they come.
i dont want my life to be perfect thou im a perfectionist cus i would rather fall and learn. i've fell a few times with abrasions here and there or sometimes bigger bruises hurting me like hell but i grow from all these life lessons. its really not about how much you want to gain but how you much you want to give. its okay if i've given everything that i could and i got back nothing in return cus i know i've done my best and i wont live in regrets.
im thankful for living a full 25 years of my life and i promise my life would only get better from now on.
